And I really do get why she put me on it: if I went from one antidepressant right to another psych med, I would have to wait along time for the old one to fully clear my system, and then wait a long time for the new one to build up, but if we're just trying stuff (which is definitely the phase we're in now, I've only been seeing her since march), then she could put me on a BP med the day after stopping a psych med (after tapering off, of course) - which I've just done. So there's less turn-over time between meds and I can try something new sooner and faster.

So it does make sense. I do get it. Her methods are sound. And I do see her again in... almost exactly a month now.

But I just have the sneaking suspicion that I'm going to spend a very good portion of the next four weeks feeling like shit in the service of eliminating a particular treatment from our little box of possible treatments, and I'm really tired of feeling like shit, especially now that it's summer, which is the only time of the year that I really ever feel good anyway. I feel like I'm losing time.