It also doesn't help that I want to do ALL the things? I want to make video games, youtube videos, draw, write, perform... and then don't do any of it cause I lack the spoons and energy. I know I'm capable of it. I've done it before. What up, brain?
Sometimes I think it's because I do those things pretty much on my own and if I surrounded myself with creative people with a decent work ethic then I would do better too.