If by chance I happen not to be there when you need me, it might be because my mind already has wandered too far and that if you want my support, you shall first bring me back to your side, however hard it is.

That's what it is living with me, however since I have to be strong, I'm strong enough to be there, sometimes too late, yet be there, although every part of my mind is crumbling and turning to dust and shadows.