I want to thank @ZeldAurore for everything. She helps me, respects me, asks and take care of me when I can't take care of myself. I am lucky, and I feel like I will never be able to thank her enough. There is no reward for helping me when I'm feeling bad, except my gratitude, and the fact I'm feeling better after. I am grateful beyond words and filled with love toward her.
It makes me sad to feel like a burden when I panic, but I know it's not my fault. I do my best. But sometimes it's too hard. She brings me help, and it's extremely important to me.
So... thanks.
(btw if you read this, I love you Aurore ! I love you so much !)