i would be delighted to be with a girlfriend or a datefriend and to share that connection and to take care of them in the ways i am capable of doing, but i remain too ashamed of not being financially independent, not being able to work in the field i formally trained for, and not being done with my years in cptsd therapy

i don't want to be that around anyone, so i will continue to not date and not be involved, even casually, with others. it's not fair on them otherwise