@Mawloc *hugs*

and that they made me ate that, even if I had told them I didn't want to. How I am supposed to trust them on anything if they're lying to me about food ?
And it's not as if I could live on my own. I've got not one else to live with, I'm not wealthy enough to live by myself. I don't have enough time to work while I'm studying, and my school is almost next to my parent's house. So I'm stuck here for something like 5 years, even if I'm closer to the edge each day, I just can't go anywhere else... I really don't know if I'll be able to stay here. Each day is tougher than the previous one. I can't tell them I'm bi, nor that I'm trans.

I can't be vegan. The days passing, I'm not even sure I have the right not to vote or to be anarchist. I mean, I'm not really able to choose what I'll study, how could I do all that ? I can't tell them that I'm wondering about the fact I could be depressed.
I'm not sure I know them... I more and more feel way closer from the few friends I have than from them. I can hardly ever talk to them, or trust them. And even if there's only something like 2 people I feel I can trust, they should be these two people. They're strangers to me... I don't know them, I share nothing with them, got anything in common with them, I can't even stand

their presence... I need to be alone all the time because I can't stand being with them when I eat. My favourite moment is when I eat alone for lunch. And yet, I'll have to live like that for something like 4 or 5 years... I'm not sure I'll be able to survive that long...
My only good moment is when I'm alone at home, my only hope is to have my own home... And it seems so far away, I don't know if can still live that way...

@Mawloc *offers hugs*

@Mawloc hum... tu es encore au collège ou tu es une étudiante française endettée ? parce que sinon a la limite tu peux déménager en Europe :)