MeriBeri🍒 @MariBari@witches.town

Okay, even though I don't believe in astrology whatsoever, the fact that I'm not technically a Pisces according to the updated Zodiac really, really pisses me off for some reason

I haven't done a Mekanism build in #Minecraft since 1.6.4... This should be interesting~

It probably says a lot about modded Minecraft that "mid-game" is a reasonable ability to fly and a crossbow that can instant-kill most of the mobs in the game

@Troasta Thanks! I'm going to be using it as home base for this world. :D

Me: Oh, I don't play much Minecraft anymore. I'm not much of a builder anyway, haha. Don't expect me to sit down and build anything impressive.

Also me: *gets back into Minecraft for the first time in over a year and immediately builds this thing*

Just shaved my arms and holy shit I am S O F T

My bank account: $107

My electric bill: $101

It's gonna be one of those weeks, huh... (good thing I'll be leeching off of family members in a few days!!)

I really hope I can get out of this country before things go completely tits-up

*actually wins a Rainbow Six Siege match, still alive, with a lot of kills*

My biggest regret is shitposting at the witches.town ~limbo period~ between midnight and 2am where the Americans have all gone to sleep but the Europeans haven't woken up yet

Me, after waking up from a depression nap:

@JJEden Like, I absolutely despise TERFs and never believe their hate speech or harassment... So why is it, then, that I end up hating myself for the exact same reasons they say I should hate myself over? It's very frustrating.

@JJEden The problem is that, like, I've been immersed in TERF rhetoric for so long that anything and everything sets off huge amounts of internalized transphobia :(

Current emotion: Lying face-down on a carpeted floor and thinking about becoming a better person

Me: Maybe I'm uncomfortable with conforming to the gender binary.

The shitty Gender Gremlin that resides in my brain: Actually, that's just because you literally failed to become the gender you were supposed to be. Congratulations dipshit, the TERFs were right about you all along and nothing you ever do will ever be good enough. Oh, and you're ugly and nobody will ever love you. And the people that already love you are just lying to you. Fuck you.

Me: O-oh...

Feeling pretty rough right now because I've been feeling very genderqueer recently instead of binary trans woman and while I'm much more comfortable with my body in the context of a nonbinary identity I feel like I'm validating literally everything TERFs say about trans women by not being a Perfect Trans Woman:tm: who always embodies femininity and passes 24/7 and never, ever questions their gender whatsoever