It sounds kind of silly, but my self-esteem just like... won't let me accept the fact that people could find me sexy? I actively have to prove to myself that yes, my loving fiance thinks that I'm hot and that's not just her having really bad taste or something.

I guess one of the ways I prove that to myself is to follow a lot of trans-positive and chub-positive artists and just kind of... soak in the body positivity for a while. It's weird.