My family: Come down for Thanksgiving, we have a bunch of food and one (1) obligatory Christian prayer :D

Me, internally: This holiday is built on the deaths of native people and we should really stop celebrating it

Me, externally: ...fuck it. I'm hungry and creating more tension in my family by refusing to celebrate isn't going to un-kill all those people. I'm exhausted of constantly thinking about death and genocide and am just going to enjoy a shitty holiday for once