Maggie @Maenad@witches.town

@mona sure! a closed form expression in terms of a and b would be useful.

@mona e^-ax + e^-bx

@MightyPork sure but like

right now I have a distribution that I want to fit as the sum of two exponentials which I can do by choosing rate parameters to fit the mean and variance

so I want a closed form expression for the variance

what is the variance of the sum of two exponentials and why does this feel like a homework question I've done before

*looks at pictures of self from 2011-2014*

HOW DID NO ONE INTERVENE!??!?!?

@serafin glad my boss left for the day because I am actually laughing out loud

@IrisKalmia OOF

@serafin SHOW ME YOUR FLOW DIAGRAM AND GET ON THE FLOOR

@meena yep, took it in my office the other day.

@serafin are you telling me I don't need a matrix model for my household because I think you're lying to me

cw: selfies, eye contact

I don't have any pictures from 2012. I mostly have very few from 2010-2014.

Here's one from 2011, one from 2013, and one from the other day wearing the same shirt as the 2011 and in a similar pose to the 2013.

#2012vs2018

Why are gamma distributions

@chosafine basically I find that if I think of things as an established ritual I freak out that I'm doing them wrong

if I think of them as informal things I can adapt to make work for me, then I have less fear/nervousness and can listen more to myself rather than looking for experts.

@Vann I just resist calling it meditation a lot because I think a lot of people mean very specific things when they say meditation

I lie flat on my back in a dark room without my phone and try to let my mind come to a rest (usually shortly after I get home from work, NOT as a "going to bed" ritual, although I'll repeat it then if I need to).

So I often insist I don't meditate, I just work to consciously turn my brain off every day

Then I read this

https://np.reddit.com/r/leaves/comments/85u18y/some_notes_and_encouragement_on_meditation_from/

It's pretty much exactly what I do (although I count)

Guess I meditate

@envgen w o w

@vantablack is on a quest to be extremely herself in the face of society and family

@mallaidh also I <3 that you're enjoying calc more than you've enjoyed math in the past

may I recommend linear algebra!

@mallaidh MATH IS TAUGHT WRONG AT ALL LEVELS THIS IS A HILL I WILL DIE ON

@meena I mean, sure, but "I'm gay for..." someone I will never meet is not even so much an expression of lust.

She did a lot of extremely powerful things in an assertion to be herself and I find that inspiring/affirming. I can look up to and take inspiration from someone much younger than me.

She's beautiful and her presence in the world makes the world beautiful/gives me hope. There is a difference between thinking these things and doing the mental objectification that would be creepy give the age gap.