I'm terrified of offending/hurting/ostracising POC friends with my own ignorance; the more I try to learn and grow so I won't, the more worried I become of irreparably damaging friendships. depression brain tries to convince me that these women I love so much would be better off without my white ass, that just being is an act of malice.
this all surfaced after the election, I think. I remember us being much closer before.