I get jealous when I see other people's pda

but uh

I get really uncomfortable when people display (romantic) pda to me.

I know from experience that I don't pair bond well. I want someone where we can both assume the other person will be there and who will appreciate me but I don't want someone who gets all heart eyes over me???

so I'm standoffish when I flirt with people here - I flirt a little here but then pull back - because I just don't WANT more

so 🤷‍♀️