So I'm at the Planning Phase and I realize "Hey you should probably go to the hospital for this" but lol Money and also how would anyone in my life take that?

Also how do I know I'm not a dirty, lying faker?

@ThatVeryQuinn 1) you're not a faker. Your feelings are real. 2) not getting help will hurt the people you care about more than admitting you need help will.

@Maenad I've just never felt like this before? Like, I've always been able to brush off being suicidal and ignore it and be a coward and not go through with it but things are Different Now.

@Maenad And tbh it kind of feels like going to the hospital this time would just be being a coward again.

@ThatVeryQuinn @Maenad Cowardice that prevents suicide doesn't seem like cowardice to me.