Filene 🌠🌠🌠 @Filene@witches.town

Sitting in the shade of the nice weather and thinking about an #iChing reading I got yesterday; mountain over water changing to tree/wind on a mountain. The first hexagram is about all teachers having been pupils somewhere along the line, and about the nature of teaching. The changing lines cover much, but convert to a hexagram about gradual progress.

I had asked it about my writing, and my progress in life in general, and the changing line I was told as dominant, talks about idolatry.

I just looked up the etymology, but it didn't reveal more than what I realized today. I've been idolizing all sorts of my fears, as if they might consume me.

~ V1 ~
My name is Filene
My labels: I am a #queer #lesbian #homoflexible #nonmonogamous #pangender #nonbinary #transgender #woman #wytch /#witch

~ My mediums ~
#writing #illustration #design #marketing #metaphor #iching #theater #transformation

~ My aspirations ~
#eloquence #community #charity #devotion #performance #knowledge #storytelling #mindfulness #philosophy #courage

~ My inspirations ~
my #Unicorn; #Unity; my #spouse; my #wusband
my #children
#friends #psychedelics #marijuana #injustice #meditation #trauma #dreams

~ alters ~
A sexfluid agender peacock
A parallel universe rat
NotStung

~ For Witches.Town: ~
#activism #witchcraft #queer #visibility

I was recently inspired, in a way I can't remember, to see if a pentagram might inspire me in my Practice; I wasn't sure how I might be inspired to be a witch by the five-pointed star, but this is what came to me:
Cocksure
Eloquence
Possession
Ignition
And sumption (with possibly inspired prefixes like con-, as-, or none at all)

A quick doodle on Sketchbook mobile. Excuse the crudeness. :3
I did etymology research into the words, as well as a basic look into pentagrams.

Still evolving.

https://witches.town/media/6KyXkmRZ0nNaWWO_2GU

This is the first time in awhile I've felt good posting a selfie.. My hair's condition leaves me feeling super dysphoric: I wish it all grew out and back already... Plus I was really sensitive about looking vain for taking a picture at all.

I didn't expect to get any sigils or for it to be channeled, which gives me a very humble and grateful bit of pride and confidence. 😭

Thank you, #witches ;___; <3. 😂

So, with a bit of makeup, no wig or hair accessories, I have a new profile icon. I'm eagerly awaiting my hair continuing growing out..
Also new: a header from an #Ema ( #絵馬 ) a friend offered to send back to Japan with a friend, a present for my 29th birthday.

#cutewitches https://witches.town/media/_ShhH3JKOUXoxb-OQOg https://witches.town/media/3702hW093kzLx1SwJPo

I make my own #Tarot layouts. @SiliconDawnTarot is wondrous.

To break through the clouds (5) fortifying the vault (1) holding the gifts (2,3,4), with the threat paralyzing me in the darkness (6). There's a rescue "behind" me in 7, waiting to spirit me away when my gifts are liberated, with the future I'm meant for (8) and both this future's seed and solace until then (9).

1: The Devil (15)
2: Ace of Wands
3: 6 of Wands
4: The High Priest (5)
5: 7 of Swords
6: Princess of Swords
7: Queen of VOID (some liberation)
8: History (X)
9: 4 of Pentacles https://witches.town/media/1HHC06Hg3qzuHDSZIX8

Writing my witchcraft book wasnt as rewarding as I'd have hoped, even if I felt like I made some conceptual progress. I really don't want it to turn into a stream of consciousness philosophical discussion, I really want the practical takeaways to be evident. Maybe I need more structure..

I haven't begun getting things done this afternoon, yet. I got a new webhost for my web portfolio, though I gotta step it up and make a new one for my graphic design.. I'd rather employment there, or with writing.
Chilling before getting to the chores, or doing them after my afternoon trip. Maybe I can get ahead in writing now, anyways..

@Eve Thank you for placing a sigil on my iChing request jinx, and channeling it!

@Sylvhem thank you for sharing my outreach attempt; mercí beaucoup!

If you're a national of #China, #Taiwan, #Korea, or any other country where #iChing or studies of the #bagua are part of your culture, please reach out to me. I've been taking my Practice of #iChing as seriously as I might without access to Mandarin Chinese, and I'd like to avoid as much cultural appropriation in my Practice of divination as possible.

Thank you!

I did an #iching reading and got earth over earth changing to lightning over earth, both really indicative of the wisdom I sought. I was concerned when the epiphany I needed, and felt cusping, might arrive.

On the way here (my spouse's work,) I heard two songs from Van Canto on my playlist that really spoke to the inner life I need to rejuvenate: "I Stand Alone" and "She's Alive," which I feel are related to one another. Other songs (Starlight, Hero, and King) have all been of inspiration recently, but weren't the two I spent the car trip singing.

Arriving, I do feel that innermost freedom like rivers coming home, and maybe I'm alive and know it inside.

Sitting here, watching cars roll by with my kid watching alongside me in their stroller. I haven't gotten to meditate in the last five days, not long enough to sit well with me. I could probably do it now since they're beginning to relax.

I'm getting a pretty invisible "to do" list. Dealing with my financial problems are on paper, alongside writing and antifascist propaganda posters.

Yet I have this unease I can't explain, and the caffeine might be contributing.

I'll walk around and hopefully coax the little one to sleep..