Filene 🌠🌠🌠 @Filene@witches.town

I didn't go out and socialize today.
I started feeling prisoned here. My spouse supports me in whatever I want to do, and she supports our life here.
Yet, I'm not going out. I'm not being visible enough. I'm still isolated, lonely, and invisible.

I've fantasized about the days I'm internet-famous and rich, but they seem so impractical as a solution to my life's problems. Is being a streamer & author really as healthy as I'd hope?

An iChing reading perplexed me. Mountain over water changing to mountain over wind. I took from this that I'm dealing with my delusions of my career, instead of actually building it with hard work.
Hang in there.

@Angle I started fading midway through "V"
So I might need to try again soon. It was nice, btw

@JessicaKirby I hope you're getting treatment and peace that will truly help you. Take care..!

Cw: eye contact
I still haven't taken any photos of this hair that are fantastic. Meanwhile, another day with the #cutewitches tag and my outfit!
I'm really proud of how I'm finding more witchiness without buying another piece of clothing. ;w;
https://witches.town/media/O0AtwaTdzraH619Wy_I
https://witches.town/media/oEUbgFI8chQH94Z553o https://witches.town/media/goWSfypIJISPQFosmA4

@guerrillarain 😊

@guerrillarain

Here's some from my personal folder! Sources unknown, aside from depicted credit. :)

https://witches.town/media/d3yIo43kvCS0MucYaeM https://witches.town/media/fSOOwAu4uJL9dX9RXmw https://witches.town/media/KAOXP85PsH2h4kFfg9A https://witches.town/media/GBsP8Pss7WdW5H-7Vnk

@blackangel 😳 😣 😍 😳
in that last photo with the cigarette, I was truly fascinated. You had such poise in all the bright pictures, that: the sudden darkness, along with the just-long-enough, lilt, and lit cigarette, all made an alluring impression on me.
<3 well done glamour!

@JessicaKirby This is the kind of kind reply, where I debate if I should favorite/hex this toot or if I should reply, or if I should say nothing in agreement?

So I'm hexing/marking this as fave, I now must bashfully reply as well. 😵

@Maenad I love it!

I was feeling good, brave, and courageous in merely wearing a sparkly rainbow husky tail out, but now I'ved caused my spouse a lot of stress and grief in my discussions about where to go so "bravely."

I feel so poorly that I'm struggling to feel appropriate expressing how low it is.

I don't know if I felt us invulnerable, or shameless, or powerful, or what. But now I feel radically different, wrong, othered, and alienated.

People who regularly chat with me didn't spare longer than a moment.

https://witches.town/media/c4oo_NjYioDmWsIEZls

Cw: eye contact
Here's some more #cutewitches from today, in my new hair. :3 I love this wrap, woo <3
#witchier every day!!

I don't feel super energetic and cute, but I feel good enough!

https://witches.town/media/hew8MpiQiKW0QI0x7To https://witches.town/media/AEZKN-WVkTGbA7WqyGU

Cw: eye contact

Here's some #cutewitches of myself from yesterday! :3 I got new hair from my wusband! 😸

I'll post today's #selfies soon, too :3
Getting #witchier every day! ;w;

https://witches.town/media/zz50yKueFjf9nG09J7Q https://witches.town/media/if8z6bcftkiZFjRnzdM https://witches.town/media/Mfpbf4c-ChQXwj6HZ9Y https://witches.town/media/xc51Pxjx29ee_PKx9LA

@JessicaKirby A dynamite selfie. I love your top and lipstick. :D I'm impressed your makeup didn't smudge all night.. 😲