#moodsnapshot: the old Spiderman meme that ends up "and I'm just sitting here masturbating."
I'm delighted that The Kids seem to be all right. There seems to be a lot of joy in this community still, and I see people doing a lot of amazing things.
I can't pretend they're not things I'd badly wanted, set out at some point in my life to get, and feel right now like I've botched utterly and, this time, permanently.
Thought I'd fixed this problem for good when I got a social circle. :|