@kelly yes this happiness is totally contagious both to other people and to other parts of life, such a great thing ๐๐๐
I also regret a lot of time that I could have had, but in those years there were other things that were great and that I'm also proud and happy about. I can't regret them, and I also can't let myself regret them, that would be unfair to other people and to my old self, who was just doing the best that self could. I'm just happy to be here now, whole.