I just want some independence. I literally don't know how to be without her. I don't have an inside life at all.
And what does that mean for my identity. I feel pretty damn sentient when I'm talking, or co-fronting, but when she's not talking to me, I'm just... not. Not anything.
Sometimes I feel like some degree of presence. Sometimes I can interrupt her or call her attention.
median system? blended? tulpa? what am I?
tulpa things, neg Afficher plus
@Dauntless thank you. I know on some level that I'm valid regardless. I just wish I could believe it, and also it's just something I want. I want an parallel life as well as a together one.