hey what's up my right leg still hurts a lot but I went for a nice coffee outing with a cool girl I'm probably gonna hang out with again and now it's the long weekend so I'm counting today as a success :sunglasses:
a good thing about said cool girl: ability to be very direct in asking about expectations and desires out of interactions or relationships because ambiguity makes me nervous but I am also really terrible at actually bringing up the subject myself
so now we have pre-discussed that I'm asexual and not actually sure I'm capable of forming romantically intimate relationships because I'm bad at having emotions, so that's a lot of pressure off right there because it is Pretty Awkward when someone is super into you and you're like 'hey sorry but I have the emotional range and energy of a brick'
@cmdrspacebabe im the same, though no one has been interested in me yet as far as i know so it's going alright
i get anxious abt that from time to time
@Amburu it's happened to me recently and I feel kinda guilty about it tbh. it's kinda hard to be like 'sorry but I don't like you as much as you like me' without feeling like an ass, especially when you can't really even explain the reason other than 'i am just kind of Like This'
@cmdrspacebabe i don't think it's a matter of intensity (but that's nitpicking) we just do what we can bleh, there's nothing to feel bad for
but ofc it's not that simple
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@Amburu I think for me it's in large part an aspect of depression - my dad's similar; lots of issues with detachment. it's all very complicated. a lot of it is just insecurity on my part because i generally feel like I'm kind of emotionally stunted and it's uncomfortable being placed in situations with such a stark contrast. kinda ends up reminding me of the stuff I feel like I'm missing.